I Got Fired

Some people are curious as to how I managed to fall into this way of life. After working my ass of in school, and sacrificing everything I know in order to complete 5 degrees, and moving to a different country own my own, I thought I finally did it. I had landed it a nice cushy job at one of the major international corporate law in world. I was so proud of myself after accomplishing all that I had accomplished at a ripe, young age.

But then I got fired. I don’t want to get into the whole story, but let’s just say that if my name was Becky, and I had blonde hair and blue eyes, wasn’t an immigrant, and had the 5 degrees that I currently hold, I would still have that job. That firm threw me away like I was the plague. The heartlessness involved was so overwhelming that even if I think about it now I still get emotional. I thought I was a complete failure, and I let these people make me question all of my abilities and talents.

I wallowed in my own self-pity for 8 months, got a minimum wage job working in a candy store, put on 50 pounds of food and self-loathing, and ended up anti-depreesants. Then realised I still couldn’t afford to take care of myself and got a second minimum wage job working in customer service. Wiping my CV clean, and erasing all of my accomplishments in order to get a job was one of the most humbling experiences I’ve gone through. I was even rejected from a position to hand out newspapers at train stations. Then one day I started to realise that I didn’t mind my minimum wage jobs. No, they weren’t challenging, but I was content. I was stripped bare and was okay with what I saw. I learned that money and status is not important to me even though I thought they were and that the only requirement I have in life is to be happy.

I am currently finishing my 3rd Masters degree and I have a Law degree and have realised that the only thing I need to do with my education is help others. I am fortunate enough to be educated in a field that can save the lives of other people, and I much rather do that than make the fat cats fatter in a corporate law firm. This realisation led me on a spiritual journey that brought me to Tarot and Mediumship, but it also brought out my creative side. I found my passions in my time of lost and was able to start a business out of it. Instead of selling my soul to work for the status quo, I now fight against it. My education has made me a spiritual activist, and I think that is a much better fit for me than a lawyer. I used to be the system and now I say fuck the system, and fuck the society that has built the system.

I use my education and spirituality to fight for every disadvantaged group out there: people of color, lgbt, transgender, women, refugees, migrants and immigrants, those with mental illnesses, and everything in between. And I hope to one day be able to show someone that is about to sell out for the check that they’ve been blessed with the skills to change a life and change the world.

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Food for Thought – The Importance of Black People in Tarot

I was so excited to find myself a beautifully melanated deck of Tarot cards. When I first started reading Tarot, I found myself annoyed with the lack of diversity. I was so aggravated in fact that I found a brown colored pencil and started coloring things in. I still was unsatisfied, because it felt ‘unauthentic’ and went out to purchase some decks. Next thing I knew I was swimming in a sea of Tarot and Oracle decks, because I was so obsessed with finding one black person! I came across the Vision Quest tarot deck and used that for a while because it had Native Americans and it was, ‘as close as I could get,’ but I still couldn’t relate to the deck. When you can’t relate to the deck you are learning with I feel that it makes development more challenging and time consuming. How could I relate to the struggles of Becky with blonde hair and blue eyes when I was a black woman with nappy hair from New York?

We are making strides in the world, but we are still behind and the New Age and Tarot communities. Out of all of the decks out there, this is the only fully melanated deck I’ve seen our heard about. It’s important for decks to show people of all shapes, colors, and sizes. If I can’t relate to the decks, how do I expect my clients to relate to their readings? img_2763

Card Deck: Ghetto Tarot by Alice Smeets

Alice Smeets does an amazing job in capturing the beauty of Haitian faces in her photography.