I Got Fired
Some people are curious as to how I managed to fall into this way of life. After working my ass of in school, and sacrificing everything I know in order to complete 5 degrees, and moving to a different country own my own, I thought I finally did it. I had landed it a nice cushy job at one of the major international corporate law in world. I was so proud of myself after accomplishing all that I had accomplished at a ripe, young age.
But then I got fired. I don’t want to get into the whole story, but let’s just say that if my name was Becky, and I had blonde hair and blue eyes, wasn’t an immigrant, and had the 5 degrees that I currently hold, I would still have that job. That firm threw me away like I was the plague. The heartlessness involved was so overwhelming that even if I think about it now I still get emotional. I thought I was a complete failure, and I let these people make me question all of my abilities and talents.
I wallowed in my own self-pity for 8 months, got a minimum wage job working in a candy store, put on 50 pounds of food and self-loathing, and ended up anti-depreesants. Then realised I still couldn’t afford to take care of myself and got a second minimum wage job working in customer service. Wiping my CV clean, and erasing all of my accomplishments in order to get a job was one of the most humbling experiences I’ve gone through. I was even rejected from a position to hand out newspapers at train stations. Then one day I started to realise that I didn’t mind my minimum wage jobs. No, they weren’t challenging, but I was content. I was stripped bare and was okay with what I saw. I learned that money and status is not important to me even though I thought they were and that the only requirement I have in life is to be happy.
I am currently finishing my 3rd Masters degree and I have a Law degree and have realised that the only thing I need to do with my education is help others. I am fortunate enough to be educated in a field that can save the lives of other people, and I much rather do that than make the fat cats fatter in a corporate law firm. This realisation led me on a spiritual journey that brought me to Tarot and Mediumship, but it also brought out my creative side. I found my passions in my time of lost and was able to start a business out of it. Instead of selling my soul to work for the status quo, I now fight against it. My education has made me a spiritual activist, and I think that is a much better fit for me than a lawyer. I used to be the system and now I say fuck the system, and fuck the society that has built the system.
I use my education and spirituality to fight for every disadvantaged group out there: people of color, lgbt, transgender, women, refugees, migrants and immigrants, those with mental illnesses, and everything in between. And I hope to one day be able to show someone that is about to sell out for the check that they’ve been blessed with the skills to change a life and change the world.
Categories: Self Love